Many of you know that since I was 18 I've suffered with PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome). As a result, I've dealt with irregular cycles, painful cycles, short cycles, loooong cycles or no cycle at all. Fever, vomiting, headaches, severe stab-like pain in my abdomen, horrendous cramps, severe body ache and other things I'm too embarrassed to mention have accompanied my cycles frequently. Oh and don't let me forget the awful emotional breakdowns, short fuse temper, feelings of insecurity, self neglect, over-eating, fits of anger, over-sleeping, loss of sleep, and the list goes on. Worst of all, infertility. Not only does it affect me, but my husband, family, friends, and co-workers. I mean think about it, they are in my company while I go through alot of this.
I have been on the same heavy cycle now for nearly 3 months. I recently started a treatment that has brought some relief on the cycle side of things but also has some minor side effects. The last couple of days I felt horrible. tingling all over my body, shakes, feeling of anxiety, body ache from head to toe, my very bones felt stiff. It was just a weird day for me physically.
Yesterday at Mid-week service, pastor George preached about having faith in trials and used Psalm 40 as his text. Have you ever been through the Trial of Waiting? I'm sure you have. Perhaps you are waiting on that promise to come to pass. Waiting on healing. Waiting on your loved one to be saved. Waiting on God to provide. Waiting on reconciliation in a relationship. Waiting for a job. Waiting on _________________.
Pastor challenged us...
"To MAXIMIZE what the Lord has done in the past and MINIMIZE what could go wrong in the days ahead."
Remember that...
"The past is full of God's mercies and the future is full of God's plans."
While you wait on God's plans/promises to come to pass in your life YOU CAN...
1. LOVE GOD,
2. SERVE OTHERS.
3. TELL OTHERS ABOUT HIM.
I can tell you many AMAZING stories of the Lord's faithfulness in my life over the last 15 years. Yet over the years I have struggled with my faith in God. Faith that He will do certain things for little ol me...like heal me. But one thing I have held on to is my hope in God. Hoping, waiting even in the darkest times of my life that God's deliverance is on the horizon. For some reason, He has yet to heal me or allow Eddie and I to have a child. I will say this, at the end of the day I will continue to wait on Him. Whether the Lord heals me or not, or allows us to have children, Jesus will remain my Lord and that will not change.
ps. I love you Lord and I wait on you. My hope is in You.
I have been on the same heavy cycle now for nearly 3 months. I recently started a treatment that has brought some relief on the cycle side of things but also has some minor side effects. The last couple of days I felt horrible. tingling all over my body, shakes, feeling of anxiety, body ache from head to toe, my very bones felt stiff. It was just a weird day for me physically.
Yesterday at Mid-week service, pastor George preached about having faith in trials and used Psalm 40 as his text. Have you ever been through the Trial of Waiting? I'm sure you have. Perhaps you are waiting on that promise to come to pass. Waiting on healing. Waiting on your loved one to be saved. Waiting on God to provide. Waiting on reconciliation in a relationship. Waiting for a job. Waiting on _________________.
Pastor challenged us...
"To MAXIMIZE what the Lord has done in the past and MINIMIZE what could go wrong in the days ahead."
Remember that...
"The past is full of God's mercies and the future is full of God's plans."
While you wait on God's plans/promises to come to pass in your life YOU CAN...
1. LOVE GOD,
2. SERVE OTHERS.
3. TELL OTHERS ABOUT HIM.
I can tell you many AMAZING stories of the Lord's faithfulness in my life over the last 15 years. Yet over the years I have struggled with my faith in God. Faith that He will do certain things for little ol me...like heal me. But one thing I have held on to is my hope in God. Hoping, waiting even in the darkest times of my life that God's deliverance is on the horizon. For some reason, He has yet to heal me or allow Eddie and I to have a child. I will say this, at the end of the day I will continue to wait on Him. Whether the Lord heals me or not, or allows us to have children, Jesus will remain my Lord and that will not change.
ps. I love you Lord and I wait on you. My hope is in You.
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